I have tried and tried to figure this “surrender” thing out. I think I have it then I’ll find myself back to doing things my way again. It can be so exhausting.
There’s no doubt that I struggle with certain fears and have trouble standing my ground or speaking the truth about my feelings. It’s almost as if my fears control me and stop me in my tracks. But the reality of a fearful life is more than difficult. Some might say…”just do it” or “why can’t you you say what you feel? After all they are your feelings, own them!” Actually, hearing that tends to make things worse for me. I can even read scriptures like Romans 8:15 that say …for you have not received a spirit of slavery leading to fear again, but you have received a spirit of adoption as sons by which we cry out, “Abba! Father!” or sing songs in church that say “I’m no longer a slave to fear, I am a child of God.” These touch my heart and give me new strength, yet they don’t sustain me if I don’t practice what it takes to believe them.
Who is this God I seek? How can I surrender to Him?
I believe the answer comes in a constant communion with Him and a deep desire to know Him and love Him first and formost in everything I do. (Matthew 6:33). When God loves me…and he never doesn’t…He wants me to love Him and surrender every need to Him… my fears included. He doesn’t manipulate me. That would make me more fearful. He loves me, not because it is required of me, he allows me to choose it. Truth is… Nothing is a requirement to receive His love (Romans 8:38-39).
God’s love is the greatest and most certain thing I have in this life. Nothing compares to it! Nothing.
When I believe the truth about His love and the significance it has, then I desire more time with Him. And when I do spend more time with Him, I feel His love more deeply, which makes trusting Him come more naturally. God’s love is perfect and perfect love casts out fear (1 John 4:18).
So, the way to surrendering my fears to God is knowing and accepting His love for me and trusting that He will make all things right when I do… And freely loving Him in return.
Heavenly Father, My fears control me if I let them. Yet I know your love can sustain me. Today I accept your love and love you in return. I trust that you will make things right. I know there is no fear in love and you ARE love (1 John 4:16). I surrender to you. In Jesus’ name, Amen.